In a daze.

Feeling much better after getting a real rest!
My mind is still at the brink of destruction though. =.=
i think that is what they call emotionally unstable?

Who cares, i finally have enough physical rest!
Now comes the mental torture. Need my brain to stop functioning awhile!!
Nowadays i get depress and angry easily because of that.
It doesn't show because i am holding it in (trying).

Anyway, on to Project 365:

Day 2: February 25 2009

That was the first time me having "breakfast" in McD with my friends (Eliza, Mae, Luc, Isabel, Dennis). It is before our event: Blood Donation Drive.

Day 3: February 26 2009

The girl on my right (Sze Mun) is my first (and only, for now) accomplice in Project 365.
Check her blog out right here.
i like her blog. It summarized a lot of things into pictures or just simple words.

That's all. Will be updating Project 365 randomly though.
Calv out!

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Interesting, Project 365

i can't seem to appreciate my current life enough.
Depressing as it is, i have to bear with it..
Don't know why recently it feels painful to laugh.

On the other hand, i manage to find something to do everyday in Sze Mun's blogpost: ThreeSixFive.
For more info, can always check out Photojojo.

Picture for Day 1: February 24, 2009



Imagine fitting 52cards in one hand making sure all of the numbers (on the top left) are visible.

Calv out!

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Return of Stickman: Wish.

Lalalalala~ Stickman is back at the moment.
Just realize it has been a long time since the last post about stickman.

Few random thoughts/questions from me:

Where did all the wishes go?
Hmm... i am hungry.
Crap, i am getting bad in badminton!
What does it takes to have a good night sleep?
i think i am getting more distance from people.
i want a freaking new DSLR!!!
It rains tonight and i love it.

Oh well. If i list it all, guess my fingers need to be hospitalized.
Calv out!

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Birthday time

Celebrated Eliza's birthday on 14/15 of February.
But before that, Eliza tricked Mae, Luc, Joanna, Fred and Li Wen!
She called to say that she can't make it and in the end she appearred right before we ate.
Guess she suspected that there would be a surprise birthday party for her.
Good news is, she was surprise of the way it was presented to her. ^^

During that time all of us ate Dominos and Jelly.
There were a lot of friendly War of the Mouths during that time because of Eliza's prank.
Tonnes of laugher can be heard all over the neighbourhood!!

Later, we watched around 3 movies before the surprise birthday party for Eliza begins!~

A few minutes after the stroke of midnight, the gang brought in the cake.
And after eating the cake, there is a little bit of fun going on with Mae and Eliza. (Not what you are thinking people, perverts!) Muahahahaha...
Refer to picture below for more info. =P

Later Eliza went into the kitchen and the gang left a big box filled with presents on the couch for Eliza.
The look on her face was priceless!

Mostly were handmade craft and in my opinion, everyone did it so wonderfully great!~

Here's a few of the pictures:


After the birthday song.


From the left: Li Wen, Mae, Luc, Eliza(birthday girl), Calv, Joanna and Fred.
Notice the smudges on Eliza's face? Work done by Mae!


Eliza unwrapping the gifts from Mae, Luc, Li Wen, Fred and Joanna.


The surprised look on her face was priceless!


Presents in the really really big box.


The whole gang! Hope everyone enjoys the day!

Calv out!

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Leave the light on!

David Cook - Light On



Never really said too much
Afraid it wouldn’t be enough
Just try to keep my spirits up
When there’s no point in grieving
Doesn’t matter anyway
Words could never make me stay
Words will never take my place
When you know i’m leaving

[Chorus]
Try to leave a light on when i’m gone
Something i rely on to get home
One i can feel at night
A naked light, a fire to keep me warm
Try to leave a light on when i’m gone
Even in the daylight, shine on
And when it’s late at night you can look inside
You won’t feel so alone

You know we’ve been down that road
What seems a thousand times before
My back to a closing door and my eyes to the seasons
That roll out underneath my heels
And you don’t know how bad it feels
To leave the only one that i have ever believed in

[Chorus]
Try to leave a light on when i’m gone
Something i rely on to get home
One i can feel at night
A naked light, a fire to keep me warm
Try to leave a light on when i’m gone
Even in the daylight, shine on
And when it’s late at night you can look inside
You won’t feel so alone

Sometimes it feels like we’ve run out of luck
When the signal keeps on breaking up
When the wires cross in my brain
You’ll start my heart again
When i come along

[Chorus]
Try to leave a light on when i’m gone
Something i rely on to get home
One i can feel at night
A naked light, a fire to keep me warm
Try to leave a light on when i’m gone
Even in the daylight, shine on
And when it’s late at night you can look inside
You won’t feel so alone

This song has been stuck in my head for quite sometime.
Slowly; yes, very slowly i begin to like this song.

So do you keep your lights on for yourself or others?
i keeps my light on for as long as i know.
It grew dimmer every second but slowly lights up. Not as bright but still good.



Valentine Day is tomorrow or in less than 43 minutes.
Got your plans ready? i have.

Calv out!

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Tagged by world class jobless.

#Those who have been tagged must write their answer on their blogs and replace any questions that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
# Those people who were tagged must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this tag by sending it to other people.

Name the person who you want to tag?
-To whoever that is reading this. Look away NOW!

Carrot or Broccoli?
-Damn, i like both but i guess carrot. Hey, it's free night vision!

Masculinity or Sissy?
-Isnt't that obvious, masculinity!

Goth or Punk?
-Goth is cool. Jobless there ain't know the difference.

Soccer or Basketball?
-Stupid question, basketball beats soccer big time!

Favourite Actor/Actress?
-Robin Williams/Kate Hudson

What do you say to a person who spread rumours about you without a reason?
-Log on to www.Diemotherfucker.org and click the link ---> www.Kissyourprivatepartsgoodbye.net

Ever took nude picture?
-What? No!

Leather shoe or snickers?
-Leather shoe.

Long Distance Love?
-Why not if both have the heart.

Internet Love?
-Don't even bother.

Tell us what is your dream last night?
-Hah, it's the same nightmare that comes to haunt me time to time.

Ever hated someone so bad?
-Hated, no! Despise, yes.

Who then?
-His name has the letter L in the middle.

The last person you have beer with?
-Johnny. Luckily he's not driving. =P

The last person you watch movie with?
-Eliza, Mae, Jeremy, Luc, Li Wen, Isabel and Denise

The last person you talked to on the cell phone with?
-Riz, more plots on the way. Nyahahaha..

The last person you hugged?
-The neighbour's baby girl. Cute!

In the last week, have you kissed someone?
-Jess, and it's just a greeting for you old fashion people.

Do you rather do exercise or babysit?
-Babysit. If you babysit, you are practically exercising, plus children are great!

If you could do anything, or wish to do anything, what would it be?
-Do = Scale Mount Everest or Sky Diving! I am not joking!
-Wish = i wish for opportunity.

If you could have an all expense pay trip, where will you go?
-i will obviously go around the world but if it is only to one place, i guess Egypt will be great.

Are you old-fashion?
-i can act old-fashion but no i am not.

Are you a freak or a geek?
-Freak of nature.

Are you a slut, bitch/bastard or whore?
-Wow, bastard then.

Five things that scare you?
-Losing my memory
-No friends
-Recurring nightmares
-Lose ability to play sports
-Being World Class Jobless

Four songs that play in your mind lately?
-Lucky - Jason Mraz feat. Colbie Caillat
-Hero - David Cook & David Archuletta
-Her Spiral Necklace - Bo
-Malam Ini - Bo

Ghost, Zombie, Witch, Wizard, Mermaid, Vampire or Werewolf?
-Vampire! May the luck of the vampire be with you, Darren Shan.

Calv out!

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A letter to the future and past

Last night i had a terrible dream.
i had only slept for 2 hours and thankfully the cold shower in 6.ooam woke me up.
Everytime the same dream will creep up to me once in awhile.

Now here's a thought, what if you could send a letter to your past and future self?

If i were to write a letter to myself five years from now, guess it will be like this:

Yo Calv (if you are still using this shell),

How's life there in the future?
Is it as how i see it would be?
Did i experience more than i expected?

First thing is that i hope you are not dwelling about the past.
Guess i would want to hear or reminance about the old times, yes?

Life here is great, i am still studying, have great friends and surviving.
The only thing that could be improved is the way my mind thinks.
Yes, i am still bad at keeping an optimistic view.
Hey, i tried to but there seems to be no improvement!

Hope that in the future; you, or i, could change that for the better.
Here's a message for myself in the future, don't be what you used to be in this time.

It would be funny to see the future me reading this.
We'll see what will happen from now onwards.
Hope that the future me turns out great.

Will be you soon.

And if i have the chance to write to myself 5 years in the past:

Hello CK,

Surprise receiving a letter from myself in the future?
Myself may not believe it but it is true.
i can't tell you what happens in the future as i am just sending my past self a message.

Always accept happiness whenever you can, and give happiness all the time.
Never ever turn your back when life gets you down and don't just sulk when things gone wrong.
Perish your old thought of "If you don't start anything, you won't lose anything"
That thought is the worst among all.
Also, you may have a lot of friends but don't ever let them discourage you from doing what you like.
If you have the slightest interest in anything, go for it and ignore negativity from others because if you let them tell you what is right or wrong, you will 100% regret it.
Say this every time before you go to bed, "I WILL DO WHAT I WANT TO DO BECAUSE I CAN!"
That's all i can tell to my past. No matter what obstacle you face, knock'em down!

i may not be able to see my past but you can see and set my future.
All the best and good luck!

Well, i guess that would be what i want to say.
Here's an offer of congratulation for coming this far.

Calv out!

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Missing song for January

Oops, seems that i forget to post up a song for January.
Here's the one that got me hooked for now. Enjoy!

Lucky (Jason Mraz feat. Colbie Caillat)



Do you hear me,
i'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby i'm trying
Boy i hear you in my dreams
i feel your whisper across the sea
i keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

i'm lucky i'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where i have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
i wish we had one more kiss
i'll wait for you i promise you, i will

i'm lucky i'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where i have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so i'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
i'll put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all i see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

i'm lucky i'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where i have been
Lucky to be coming home again
i'm lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

Truth to told, i heard another girl (a student) sang it and i started to like this song.
She's a good persuader and singer. Nyahahaha..
Anyway, it is a good song. Relaxing.

Calv out! (knowing the world ends with you! *smile*)

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No long updates on CNY

Nah, don't feel like writing out the whole thing.
So here's the summary. (Very fast one)

Day 1


First day of CNY, my grandma's house (family called it HQ, *laughs*), which is very small manage to fit in around 36 peoples! Wow!

Day 2


Second day nothing much. Just help taking care of my grandpa. (Handsome as ever)
And eat! (a lot!)

Day 3, 4, 5, 6

The view from the hotel we stayed. The hotel's bad food and bad service. So called 4-star hotel.
Time to drop your ratings to 2-star! Nyahahaha..


Went out scouting for food to eat. Oh my, look at the crowd.
Well, PUSH, PUSH, PUSH, PUSH!


My favourite day, because i get to do a little of my own photography.
Tried to take nature as one of my friend recommend me to do so.


And in the end, went back to Kuala Lumpur. By the way, the car on the right, dangerous driver!
Almost hit our car!

Well that's all for now.
Oh yea, before i forget, thanks for the open house yesterday, Summer.

Calv out!

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